Another lonely day for me, didn't get anywhere at work, now I have to come home to the Roach Motel apartment. And sit there all alone. Well, almost, I have a lot of roaches crawling in my apartment.
The losers and ***s ... well, let's just say that they will try to keep their minds off of babes. I have anxiously awaited this day, a fitting day, for the monk interviews. It is the proverbial fork in the road. Naturally, the decision is an easy one because in one direction I am only an observer, and an invisible one at that. The other direction is a direction of growth. My limited secular experience will definitely serve as an advantage. The concept of invisibility has made that all possible. It still baffles me how that works, but I think that being an eunuch or exhibiting what I call the eunuch-like behavior is at the crux of invisibility. We humans have an uncanny ability to sense impressions of other people. We base that sensory impression on a variety of information that is intuitively processed. Women supposedly are better at this, but I believe that men have the same capability. Men, however, are usually too wrapped up existentially to really be cognizant of the w
hole process. In the mating game, men are totally preoccupied with displaying their wares. The more reserved or unsure that a man is about doing this, the more likely he is perceived to be inept or eunuch-like by women. Women have no use for eunuchs. If they want an eunuch around, they would be better off with their girlfriends or a computer. At least they would have more in common with other women or the computer serves some purpose. The eunuch, however, serves no purpose in the general scheme of things because the eunuch is biologically dysfunctional.
Realizing this, I reviewed my behavior patterns, and sure enough, I am likened to Commander Data on Star Trek: TNG. That makes sense. Eunuch-like behavior requires the true Data-like personality. Has Data ever displayed his "wares" (outside of emulation)? Does Data walk with a swagger? Does Data do the "chest thrust"? Does Data make the microsecond mating eye contact with babes? I think not. After all, Data is harmless. Women do not like harmless men. If they want a harmless entity around, they'll get a dog.
But, sadly, I had to postpone my initiation into the brotherhood of monks, mainly because of my inability to purge the rage within. I also began to realize my mortality and the fact that at thirty I have done nothing. Worst yet, I know no babes. It is a totally alien situation to me. I couldn't sleep last night, and I ended up logging on at 4am. After an hour of fun, I tried to hit the sack. I must have gotten about three hours, so I was only half as delirious as I expected to be. Perhaps I should have pulled an all-nighter. Now, I am engaged in some kind of weird introspection in an attempt to figure out why I know no babes. Somebody once told me that there's someone for everyone, but I think I just found the exception to the rule. In the course of my 30 years I have not known one babe. Everyone I know knows babes. Sometimes the babes initiated the process! That has never happened to me. Well, there's no question that I'm on the right track insofar as becoming a novice monk.
Do you know anybody (aside from me) that babes find repulsive? Probably not. Even the most repulsive guys know babes. I am beyond repulsive. Well, hey! I'm a 30-year-old ***!